I’ve been taking piano lessons from Dr. Ed Kaizer at Bradley University in Peoria, Illinois. Ten years ago this year I took my first senior semester off and went to work at Disneyworld in their College Program.
This turned out to be the first step in not finishing up my degree in Piano Performance. Since that time I’ve been through some rough ups and downs in my life and battled serious depression – and still am battling. One of the traps I fall into at my lowest low, which I have been at for the last several months, is that I make my life around me comfortable and then I fall into it and emerge years later only to live through the same experience again.
This time I’m not going to let several years pass me by. So I’m looking into going back to school, possibly as early as this fall. I don’t know how the finances will work, how the job situation will work, or if the idea is even remotely possible. That much will be left up to God, so I’m not fretting about it.
In the meantime I am focusing hard now on preparing for an audition, I am taking the gaming in my life and using it to further a relationship with Alec (who just purchased a new Dell computer that makes me drool with envy), and to a lesser extent, Ethan and Evan. (How wierd is it that I hardly know those two younger boys when I was so close to all of my other siblings. They have incredible personalities and wonderful sense of humor (senses?). I guess that’s the downfall of being the oldest of nine with a twenty year gap between myself and Evan. But now they are like undiscovered gems of books that you get to read for the first time.)
Meggan turned 26 yesterday, and celebrated 10 months of being sober this week as well. I am so incredibly proud of her. She’s been promoted to bartender at her job and this year will finish up her probations. She’s another one I’m learning to know again.
So life moves on. Please pray for me – that my eyes will not droop shut again. I’m struggling hard these days and as time passes the easier it seems it will be if I just go back to sleep in my comfort area and let life pass me by.
