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Today I went to PAWS to check out the kitties and sadly, the pretty girl and I did not match up as well as I’d hoped. Apparently she’d been a stray and she must have been out on the streets for a while because she was very stringy and very thin. She was also not quite the personality I’d been hoping for.

So Kris (my friend who took me there) and I started from square one. One feisty boy kept drawing my attention but he was already spoken for – however in one of the lower cages there was almost his exact twin – about one month younger, who was lazing about in his bed. After some coaxing he came forward and I asked to meet him in a separate room.

He’s perfect, folks. He curled right up in my arms and laid his head right down in the palm of my hand – and just stayed there. When I lifted him a bit he stretched out and put his head on my shoulder – and he is a purrrrrmobile. Apparently he’d been left at the shelter in their outside box a few days before. He’s intelligent too – he knew exactly what was happening when they came in to take him back to the cage (he has to be checked out by the vet on Monday then I pick him up Monday afternoon).

He’s perfect. Meet Sergei.

Bats, Cats and Twitter

Isn’t she cute? I am praying that she will be there on Saturday when I go to pick a kitty from the local shelter. I saw her picture on their website and just.. knew! I just really hope she’ll be there.

And it is now coming up on bat season. Last year I had an .. episode with a bat – two bats in fact. Late last summer I woke up one evening to the sound of flapping. Opening my eyes I was astounded to find that there was a very large bat flying around my bedroom.

I stayed up all night with all the lights on and a broom clutched tightly but after my severe screaming the bat stayed hidden.

The next night, as I was sitting at the computer with my headset on, the bat decided to make a reappearance just as I was pressing my “push-to-talk” button and chatting with some friends – it landed on my head, folks. I screamed into my microphone and took off from the computer chair, and.. remember? headset was on – so I ended up dragging my computer tower across the floor a few good feet before I realized what was happening.

So this year I will be armed with my broom, hopefully a fixed window within the next few weeks, and a cat. Between the three of us I hope to defend myself through another season of bats.

And finally – sign up on Twitter! My username is Benz1966 so add my to your friends list. As of right now I just have Chris as my friend, and that makes me feel quite pitiful =( (Not that you make me feel pitiful Chris.. it’s just, you know!)

Almost living again!


Cold is almost over and I have an appetite again!

On a side note – friend of mine just showed me this picture and for some reason I find it totally hilarious.

Still sick..

This is a bully of a cold, I’ll give it that.

Thursday I had a bit of tightness in my lung area and knew I was coming down with something. I’ve been taking my vitamins and drinking oj every day like a good girl so I had hoped it wouldn’t hit me hard. No appetite around dinner – just drank gatorade and water.

Friday the cough started and the tightness got even tighter, but it was still livable. Still no appetite, lots of gatorade and water.

Saturday the coughing was non-stop and my voice lowered about an octave. Still no appetite, lots of gatorade and water (Yay for Kroger’s having a 10 for $10 sale on Gatorade)

Sunday I couldn’t speak. Which was a blessing because my voice at the end of Saturday sounded like a bullfrog. Still no appetite. At this point I hadn’t eaten since Thursday evening. Lots of liquids though!

Monday I couldn’t breathe – and here I thought the worst was over. Got sent back home from work and spent the day just trying to breathe. Still no appetite but managed a piece of toast last night. At this point I’ve switched to Powerade because I’m tired of Gatorade flavors!

And now it’s Tuesday – my voice is back up to a croak, and I’ve been addressed as my boss a few times. Now the congestion is hitting my head and it feels like a balloon is about to burst inside.

I would give anything to have me back again!

A small note

It’s Friday, March 16, 2007 at 3:31 p.m. CST.

  • I have a serious chest cold – and it’s getting worse by the minute. Life, at this very moment, is quite miserable.

It’s now 3:32 p.m. Welcome to one minute of my personal sick life. 1 1/2 hours to go before I can go home and gasp for air in my bed.

Spring Comes

The last few months have seemed such a blur. Work, practice, play … then rinse repeat. I’ve settled into a groove and now that I am at my most comfortable I’m looking at shaking things up again.

I’ve been taking piano lessons from Dr. Ed Kaizer at Bradley University in Peoria, Illinois. Ten years ago this year I took my first senior semester off and went to work at Disneyworld in their College Program.

This turned out to be the first step in not finishing up my degree in Piano Performance. Since that time I’ve been through some rough ups and downs in my life and battled serious depression – and still am battling. One of the traps I fall into at my lowest low, which I have been at for the last several months, is that I make my life around me comfortable and then I fall into it and emerge years later only to live through the same experience again.

This time I’m not going to let several years pass me by. So I’m looking into going back to school, possibly as early as this fall. I don’t know how the finances will work, how the job situation will work, or if the idea is even remotely possible. That much will be left up to God, so I’m not fretting about it.

In the meantime I am focusing hard now on preparing for an audition, I am taking the gaming in my life and using it to further a relationship with Alec (who just purchased a new Dell computer that makes me drool with envy), and to a lesser extent, Ethan and Evan. (How wierd is it that I hardly know those two younger boys when I was so close to all of my other siblings. They have incredible personalities and wonderful sense of humor (senses?). I guess that’s the downfall of being the oldest of nine with a twenty year gap between myself and Evan. But now they are like undiscovered gems of books that you get to read for the first time.)

Meggan turned 26 yesterday, and celebrated 10 months of being sober this week as well. I am so incredibly proud of her. She’s been promoted to bartender at her job and this year will finish up her probations. She’s another one I’m learning to know again.

So life moves on. Please pray for me – that my eyes will not droop shut again. I’m struggling hard these days and as time passes the easier it seems it will be if I just go back to sleep in my comfort area and let life pass me by.

Vegetarian – A not-so-bad lifestyle

About two weeks ago I took the vegetarian challenge and began to reshape my fridge and kitchen to reflect the same (and I quit caffeine at the same time!). At first I thought I would still continue to eat fish, but after trying a few of the incredible dishes at www.peta.org (I hate Peta but they do have some amazing recipes there) I decided the only thing animal related I would continue to eat is some dairy. I must have cheese!

Some of the pro’s I’ve found are as follows:

- I feel better. A lot better. I fall asleep at night at a reasonable hour, I have acceptable energy levels throughout the day.
- I look forward to my meals. I’ve done the diets and always was so hungry all the time which encouraged me to cheat more and more. I’m eating my normal foods now, but have incorporated much more fruit into my diet. I’ve also fallen in love with green tea.
- While the cost remains the same for my weekly grocery shopping, I end up with a lot more healthy snacks.
- Veggie burgers are REALLY GOOD.

Some of the con’s are as follows:

- Soy burgers have a really funky smell. They don’t taste bad, they just have a really funky smell.
- Plain soymilk is GROSS.
- Buying veggie meat is really, really expensive. It pains me to see the expense associated with anything that has to do with meat replacement.
- I always forget to take my vitamins =(

So that’s what I’ve been doing these days. Another thing that is really good is I’m no longer tempted by fast food joints – because it’s next to impossible to get vegetarian food there that isn’t in the form of a salad.. and salads != vegetarians.

One of my most favorite recipes I’ve tried out this week is the avocado reuben sandwich as follows:

1/2 avocado, mashed.
Sauerkraut
2 slices rye bread
Mustard
Thousand Island Dressing (recipe following)

Spread dressing on one slice of bread and mustard on the other. Put both slices of rye bread in a skillet over a burner set on medium heat. Add avocado to one slice and sauerkraut to the other slice. Heat until bread is slightly toasty.

Mmmm Mmmm good.

Thousand Island Dressing:

1 cup vegan mayonnaise
1/3 cup ketchup
1/2 tsp. onion powder
1/4 tsp. salt
1/8 tsp. garlic powder
3 Tbsp. sweet pickle relish
2 Tbsp. minced stuffed green olives

Combine in a blender.

Movie Review: Bridge to Terabithia

Friday night I decided to skip the 7:10 showing of Bridge to Terabithia and I’m so incredibly glad I did. I have never seen our little movie theater so packed full of children.

And every single one of them was crying. This did not bode well.

I should have known I would end up in tears because of all the tissue boxes scattered around the theater. The manager of the theater indicated it was for those seeing Terabithia. Great – spoilers right from the start.

I had never even heard of this story before I saw the preview for the movie. I was expecting another Narnia-like tale, and was looking forward to losing myself in fantasy for a while. What I got was a hard dose of reality instead – like drinking milk when you were expecting it to be soda – not a pleasant surprise.

Had I gone into the movie with no expectations (built on watching the previews) then I’m sure I would have liked the movie more than I actually did. The kids were cute – the story was good, but it was just a little too real for my taste.

Movie Review: Because I Said So

All I can say about Because I Said So is.. wow? I don’t get embarrassed easily by sexual innuendos but holy cow, did this movie cross the line a few times. I think the older folks around me were enjoying it more than I did. Granted there were some funny parts, but goodness – what an eye opener this movie was. It just goes to show you there are all sorts of parent/child relationships out there.

Other than that, I really don’t have a lot to say. I enjoy Lauren Graham’s acting more in Gilmore Girls then I did in this movie, and Mandy Moore has gone a long way from her innocent girlish roles. Piper just played another part similar to her role in Coyote Ugly. Diane Keaton stole the show in parts of the movie, but normally in these sort of chic flicks I don’t want them to end, and this one I was shifting around waiting for the end to come.

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