Y’all, this has been the reading week from hell for me this week. I haven’t even finished one book (still working on it… only halfway through). I totally blame the class I thought was going to be SO MUCH FUN.
For those of you who actually read this (hello, are you out there?) and don’t know, I’m a Game and Simulation Student at DeVry University. While parts of my class this session are cool (hello, I get to play and review video games) that also means I have a ton of time wrapped up in doing that very thing. Also, I have to create a game I have absolutely no interest or passion about this week. And it stinks. I have no inspiration to make it interesting and I really should.
Also I hate making flowcharts.
Sometimes I doubt myself. I doubted myself last session when I started taking Pre-Calculus but I ended up with an A. I doubt myself now though and you’d think I’d learn. I wonder on nearly a daily basis if I’m doing the write thing, if I’m going to be able to do this thing that I never envisioned in my future as a child. I always thought I’d be a piano teacher (which I do, but not nearly full time) or an author. But that’s just not happening and I don’t see it happening anytime soon. So I made my way into this field of study and while it challenges me and I do love it, the stress is almost overwhelming. Normally I read to escape stress .. or play games but of course, none of that is working this week because it’s all about school work.
I feel better just spilling it all out now though and suppose I better get back to work on this game. How do you all deal with your own doubts? I know you have them, it’s impossible for me to be the only person out there who worries and wonders if they are doing the right thing with their life.